meaning of life

Declare Shahada, pray 5 times a day, fast in Ramadan, wear hijab, avoid mixing with men, do not commit zinah, do not drink alcohol or eat pork, be kind and patient.

These are the things that i was taught and practiced for 5 years since my conversion (reversion as some say) at 18.

Pretty simple, everything was supposed to fall into place and life was supposed to be a waiting for death and the gathering of paradise credit through the above plus marriage and charity.